And so, the Life Update series continues.
Hello everyone... I hope you are all doing well.
Despite the unexpected and tragic losses I've had in the past week and the coronavirus epidemic going around, life for me has been pretty easy-going... not exactly the way I want it to, but still better than how it was before. Thankfully I have not contracted coronavirus, but it's better to be safe than sorry, especially since I have a weak immune system.
Anyways, with that out of the way, I have some news for all of you... quite a bit of news, actually.
To start off, I got into both of my college courses I applied for! My only issue is, since I want to pursue a career in both art/animation and music, I need to choose one class or another. Not sure if it's different in other places in the world, but here in Canada (or Ontario, rather), you can only enter one course out of all the other courses you applied to, and so I'm going over to main campus on the 9th to talk to an advisor, and hopefully we can both decide on which course would benefit me more, or get me more career options. God, how I love being indecisive, haha.
Second off, I got myself a psychologist and got retested for everything I was diagnosed with during both my childhood and adolescence. I very well still have GAD and - because Asperger's isn't even a term anymore - autism level 1; high-function autism if you will.
I also found out I have ADD, which honestly explains alot because my God, I forget things incredibly easily (especially when being spoken to), and it's why I have a hard time with talking. I forget what I say and when I try to put myself back on track, it ends up making zero sense. If you know me in real life, you gotta agree that my typing is more comprehensible than my speaking since I can go back and reread what I wrote, and then continue on without actually fucking up.
Third off, because of my rediagnosis of autism and my diagnosis of ADD, I'm holding off on searching for a second job. I'm also holding off until my psychologist and I tackle on issues I'm still reliving from past trauma, which has also prevented me from even WANTING to get a job in the first place. I mean, living with judgmental and emotionally / mentally abusive people as well as being bullied at a young age for being who you are and doing nothing about it for years can scar you, and it keeps you locked in until the problem surfaces in some way, and you end up building up the strength to actually get yourself into the real world. It's going to take time, however I would much rather be ready and prepared than go in and get myself fired from some place because of the way I handle things.
Lastly, Nana has been doing alright as of late! Her memory has declined even quicker than before, and she's starting to forget who I am sometimes, but physically and emotionally, she's been doing alright, and really that's all I care about.
I've been keeping myself busy with taking care of her, and the rest of the house, and it's the best feeling in the world... oddly enough I wouldn't have ever thought of doing this years ago, and yet, here I am.
Anyways, that's all I have to say for today.
I've been busy with commissions, work, and getting my life together as of late, and I gotta say that even though I've had quite a few nervous breakdowns a month ago, everything has really
come together. My birthday is coming up in 9 days, and I'll be in Toronto from the 14th until the 15th with the love of my life. Honestly, I couldn't have asked for anything better, and I am absolutely, definitely, positively - as the cool kids would say - vibing.
All in all, I'm really looking forward to what's to come.
Thanks for reading, and for your concern / support. I really do hope to see you all soon, and I am very fortunate for all you have done for me in the past while.
Thank you, thank you, and thank you. ♥
Don't cross the streams.All my loving,
Carlen